the break up.

No, I'm not going to talk about my break up with my girl; I'm going to talk about my best friend's recent break up. I have literally have held her hand through the entire thing and I wouldn't want it any other way. Her and her boyfriend went on a break right before Valentines Day, and they broke up officially just the other day. I haven't seen or heard her cry more than she has in the past 24 hours. Listening to her say over and over again "this isn't fair" threw me back 5 months (holy shit, has it really been 5 whole months?..). I've learned alot by talking to her and making her feel better.

I've realized that people do change, it's awful. We love people and who they are now. When the ones we love change we deny it, pretending everything is normal. I told her that she isn't supposed to be with him right now. She doesn't need him right now, as well as I don't need my girl. There is a reason for everything. There is a reason I'm doing this on my own and not with my girl by side. We have questions for everything- I question why I'm alone every day. But if we knew the answers to everything we wouldn't be human, and human beings are beautiful. Imperfection is beautiful. I hold onto the state of unknowing to keep me comfortable and on my feet all at the same time. I was the light in my girl's life at one time- there was a reason for that. Just as there was a reason we left each other. You can't have the light without the dark right?

I'm asking a girl to Prom this week. I'll let you all know how that plays out.

from that dancer guy to you,
Tony